"i love YOU, not that human suit you are wearing.."

(quote from the ever-quotable big-hearted james.)... having told me thusly that he loves me for ME, he then added many affectionately salacious comments about said human suit, altho, again, subordinating that love to that of my soul... for me, i must say i most love this man for HIS enormous soul tho AM quite grateful, just on the shallow physical plane, that he is so cute, handsome, & potently strong. recently i saw pix of a female person's new fling & wondered where the dog food was hidden... ... ... ... gee, that was sure mean to write. oh well. probably if the person to whom i refer had been nicer & classier, i would be likewise...
ah, the gutter: old friend. think i'll climb out now.
i can hear him cackling & guffawing & bellowing from downstairs with his army buddy, an older fellow w/kind eyes & easy smile & the most interesting stories. the sound makes me happy. :) the dear friend took us out for the swellest swank dinner of king crab, oysters, steaks, seafood jambalaya linguine, & enjoyable conversation. he's traveled & worked all around the world in very high-ranking, super-dangerous capacities, yet is humble & friendly & even sweet... i like him quite a lot, & he & james love each other so much, & again, i feel so grateful to be married to a man who so loves so many so dearly... life's too short to spend w/envy-prone gossipy/negative people of fearful small soul!
our new place is looking so, so cozy & i've been having so much fun decorating it & am so happy sister & new brother (her hubby) are staying at our mountain pad, keeping it from being lonely, enjoying the snow there, petting the awesome visiting cat we call skinny, sitting before a roaring fire... we will be here as long as need be, then will be gone from here. yes, this is the beach, yes, we like our new home, yes, the weather can produce beautiful days, but there lie ahead many years of travel & adventure elsewhere. we can think of so many other places we'd rather see... yes, we want to go vagabonding, busking, gigging, discovering new sights as soon as possible. meanwhile the adventures here continue w/james's gig this weekend, then monday's final barndance show for ronnie mack at joe's in burbank. lastly, since i'm writing so much about "us," i post this picture, taken from our "before" days, when we courted passionately & longingly while living in different far-off cities. i love the love it displays, of course, but also the composition & lighting, which remind me both of sargent & hopper somehow... the relationships that ended due to our unavoidable coupling had long been wrecked by our overly-critical then-roommates... "do you feel it, too?" he asked, the very 1st time i met him, then later, "i gotta have you..." now, a year & 1/2 later, here we are, & yes, james, i do feel it, too, & life is so much better this way... i just realized i wrote this post for him to read. sweetheart, you always tell me that i saved your life. well, you rescued me & made me want to live again, so i must say the same to you, as well as that i love you.