tcb & mister gia & cultural effervescence

we are kicking butt around this place, which a kind city friend took to be a homestead when she saw a video i made, but no, we do not have a homestead, we have 0.4 acre of property with house "only dynamite would fix" (angie, 2010), & now that james is sober, we are digging out from under 11 yrs of his clutter, & i could not be happier!!! am able to move forward on projects such as finishing the tiny house (antoine pearl, jr) (see photo of quilt, which dad, mom, & angie restored, & which perfectly fit the bedroom wall!!!),

completing the back porch patio project, & finally... finishing assembly of my sauna!!! these are good times in pageville, & i'm so grateful.

dad just sent this pic of him @ age 21. what a great pic, young handsome dad @ the seattle space needle! wow! i was his son, you know, growing up, or that's what i thought. i wanted to be just like him. "I'M his son!!" james exclaimed when i said the "son" thing. yes, james certainly is his beloved son now, & it's terrific to see what great buddies they are, too. growing up, i was merely a confused girl. nowadays they would've said i was gender dysphoric or something, but no... dad just was so kind & so handsome & he always was fixing things, working on projects, studying, learning, always self-improving, yet being weird & funny, so i just wanted to be him instead of me... once i entered young adulthood, any delusion i was a boy was smushed, but dad still is my hero, along with mama, james, & others. it's important to have heroes to motivate one's life to do & be better all the time!... speaking of which, the no kings rally in bakersfield was so massive, so positive, so wonderful, such a clear-eyed, brave showing of strength, i couldn't stop crying. my mind was blown by the THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of bakersfield people that had shown up to stand up for what is important!! it was the opposite of a mob -- it was societal facilitation, what durkheim called "cultural effervescence." that day being part of the liberty bell protest/rally immediately sealed in my craw as one of my top 10 life-memories ever... between 6 & 10 million people were estimated to attend no kings rallies country-wide. a movement has begun!!! the next peaceful mass mobilizations will take place july 4, which happens to be my 30th sobriety bd.. had intended us to go that weekend to the international aa convention in vancouver, bc, but since i didn't get my real id in time, we are a no-go! i've been blaming fdt for it, but must be honest: if i'd gotten on getting that damned real id quicker, i could've gone. so i guess i don't get to blame everything on fdt!! as distant as that person is from the Good of the Universe, The Great Spirit, & the Life Force, he is made of the same star matter as the rest of us. the bad that happens is not due to any god, but to humans, & he currently is the most massive example... well, that's it for now except once the house butt-kicking is over, it will be time for... MUSIC BUTT-KICKING!!!!