elvis elvis elvis blah blah blah stomp stomp stomp

itś a bit cold here in the house, but so pleasant compared to recent icy conditions. mom & dad came to visit yesterday, so we went out the beautiful 138 and 3 points road to the old rock inn, where we think there could be a kick-a*S music fest someday when covid has left the bldg. what a nice time it was. yesterday was the day i learnt my husband longś wanted to be a land owner, ¨like les & willie,¨ his irish people of decades back, so we might look at some little rural properties today or tomorrow. life is very different than when i met my man. today is the elvis show, now with a new host, & thatś where i first met james in da flesh 12 years ago. 12 years!!! he is snoring away in the other room right now & life is pretty good. i got back on my happy pills, having stopped them in oct, thinking i could do w/o them, but then drenched, drowning, suffocating in thoughts of head in oven, hanging by a rope, pill od, dear stacy´s gunshot suicide, just horrible thoughts i knew were not mine but the chemical imbalance talking, it was time get back on the damned things... such thoughts are so unnatural, it must be a medical condition, so iḿ not stupid, i will treat my illness, & therefore this is how it will be, in per-pe-too-i-tee. a flock of birds just flapped across the beautiful sky, the catś licking his parts in the window box before my eyes, the dog is snoring away, too, but no, here she comes: must smell food. itś a good life. itś a passing fancy. it´s right now, but soon gone. last week i didn´t get to go to work at all bc of a bad covid home test so it was kind of a lost week, laborare interruptus or whatever, but now i will be back on monday & my thoughts have been of should i keep going at education? should i quit & go back to music? what should i and we do? i´ve been obsessing about our house, trying to get a shed or container here on the upper driveway, selling antoine the trailer tiny home, keep paddling, keep paddling, don´t sink... i just made a band logo for what we are renaming the combo. i will place that here. we are getting old but we don´t have to get soft. we are not lux & ivy, but they were great models of staying cool, weren´t they? i think iĺl go put on my jacket.