dumb bird & dumb dumb dumb, horrifying & dumb

(this is a post from 3 yrs ago that i just found.) 2023: i just love birds, but the dumbest one in creation, a beautiful (i think) warbler of some kind, has been pecking & banging against the picture window & the basement window below it since yesterday. i'm pretty sure it's the same guy: it pecks & pecks the windows, then when i go outside & yell at it, flutters 10 feet away and sits right in the tree opposite. then i go inside & it starts over. i'm looking at it right now as it calls or sings (sounding like a musical burp), its reddish brown little dino-eyes peering at who knows what. i thought it was pecking bugs, which seemed smart, but james said it thinks it's seeing another bird when it looks at the window glass, so then i realized how dumb the bird must be, hence the expression "bird brain," but then if i was superstitious i'd think it's the spirit of someone or -thing or a messenger, but i'm not feeling that, so i guess the conclusion is it's just dumb... been wanting to watch good halloween haunt-scare films, but this is the prob when you've been a film freak for 40 plus years: most movies are so dumb & predictable. last night i binge-watched the latest netflix trend, & it was just dumb. what a waste of the hours, about as entertaining as eating a candy bar, a 2 hr candy bar; could be worse. most viewers now are younger than i am currently, so they've not seen so many films, so maybe that's why crap is so common. i mean, i'm sure i've seen in the 5-figure range of movie, since i became a movie freak at around age 10. used to be so hard to get good films: you had to find them in a catalog that was hard enough itself to find, then order them (movies were upwards of 60 bucks in the 80s!), then wait. now everything is streaming. click & watch. but most just ain't worth the click... horrifying that the #1 show on netflix now is the dahmer pic. one of my 5th graders referred to dahmer & looked at me to see what i'd do. i think he wanted reassurance, so i just said yes, a real-life monster, but there only was one of him, so don't worry. so little kids are watching shows about the milwaukee necrophile & cannibal. sure, i've been morbidly fascinated with killers most all of my life, but i was a strange kid & teen & young person, & tho now still eccentric, my little black heart has become relatively large & golden in older age. but back then we were so weird, like exceedingly so. my friends & i were warped alcoholics & addicts & misfits & miscreants who really just wanted to be loved but couldn't get to it. there was no nerd culture or internet or acceptance of gayness, even, back then, least in backwardsfield, so we watched all that horrible stuff & somehow felt connected. tho young, we were adults when we did all that. and we were strange, like i said... now all children, the ones that like pokemon & playing with dolls & 4-square & their blankies, can watch that same stuff, the stuff that you used to have to order from italy or japan because it was illegal to watch in this country. then they come to school & we are supposed to teach them when they have images in their little heads of jeffrey dahmer luring some young man to his squalid apartment, then drugging & killing him, then mutilating him, then having sex with the corpse, then eating him. it is a very bad situation for those children today whose parents are not watching over & protecting them. i know that me & other teachers protect them when they are at school & would at the expense of our own lives. i don't want them at such tender age to have to see or know about any of the horror of Life. especially i hate thinking they believe that behavior is usual, that the boogeyman is real & everyplace. i knew Life had changed yrs ago when james, james jr & i walked into a greek restaurant in orange county & on the eatery tv was... zombieland... specifically the gruesome intro. so we could eat our gyros while watching the undead get mutilated for our enjoyment... ok, the bird is back. what could it be seeking? keep your kids safe. protect their eyes & hearts. don't let them believe there are more boogeymans than good humans.